Lmao, a story of a potato cosplayer who went into a random game of trials and errors;
It all started with an attempt to challenge myself. While having a hangout with friends at the mall, they were talking about BSD and I was wondering if I can join along. That was the time when they mentioned that they have no one to cosplay Atsushi so I volunteered right away to fill that vacancy. I really don't know this character but I decide to go with it right away lmao. It was a random challenge to myself and a guess. So, I went home and researched the character only to realize that his poses and such are wayyy challenging for me. There are battle stances oh my god h o w to?
Sooooo, I reflect on the character's personality and how does he present himself to everyone, including his fellow ADA members. It was an exciting thing to do; to get out of your personal boundary and challenge yourself by cosplaying a character you really have no idea on how to portray.
I was not in a good mood a day before that, I got into a quarrel with someone I know that involves cosplay and such. I have to go on, so I assembled all my cos parts for this character and watched the series within the whole week. I didn't expect to relate to this character so much on a spiritual level knowing that we share a lot of feelings and many parts of the personality. I continued to know more about this character by reading the manga since I want to get a whole grasp of what kind of portrayal I might give to this character I am about to cosplay. It took me some time but it was all worth it. I didn't regret cosplaying this character and continue on improving my cosplays as a go along towards this Atsushi cosplay journey
Went to CosMania with friends and all. I really didn't expect to cosplay a character whose vibes are far from the usual territory of characters I would always choose to cosplay. I really had fun. Some people would greet me at the con with "Hello Atsushi!" that thing was so cute I couldn't even believe that these people would recognize me as the character. It was wholesome lmao am shy
As time went by, I realized how much potential I can bring by cosplaying this character, and at the same time starting to love this character so much that I am so dying to buy his merch the next day or two. I started to join this cosgroup of BSD cosplayers, kind of the biggest group somethin hahahaha. That's when everything starts to change, I started to join Open Shoots, setting up some cosplay photoshoots here and there, and so on. People start to recognize me as the cosplayer of this character. I would honestly say how much I was surprised when I saw my first batch of pictures. Those were amazing and worth it!
I also met people cosplaying the same character as I do. I might feel jealous at times towards them but it motivated to improve more. I started to spend more on cosmetics and materials to make my cosplay parts. Experimented on many makeup styles just to bring out that "vibe" for this boi. I was not satisfied at the outcome of my previous cosplay of this boi, and I will never will. My strive for perfection will continue until I get the right standard for my own achievements.
There may be times when I would drown into a depressive episode and choose to give up on this, but I didn't. I didn't regret getting this far, and I would always be proud of this cosplay. This character I'm cosplaying changed my life entirely and I will be sure to try my best to give him justice. No amount of insecurities or even bitterness would change my mind anymore. I was set to continue on this journey.
More adventures and versions of Atsushi Nakajima to me hahahahah ~!
Photo credits: Reiji Izumi (Magic Ways Multimedia), Irukandji Rain, Ken Santos (Real Image Productions)
Disclaimer: There's more to come HAHAHAHAHAHHA prepare for trouble and make it double //chokes
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